Monday, August 22, 2011

Star gazing- take 2

okay. so i originally posted this a life time ago & it was all wonkie, so here it is again, its

The Star-Splitter

by Robert Frost



`You know Orion always comes up sideways.
Throwing a leg up over our fence of mountains,
And rising on his hands, he looks in on me
Busy outdoors by lantern-light with something
I should have done by daylight, and indeed,
After the ground is frozen,
I should have done Before it froze, and a gust flings a handful
Of waste leaves at my smoky lantern chimney To make fun of my way of doing things,
Or else fun of Orion's having caught me. Has a man, I should like to ask, no rights
These forces are obliged to pay respect to?'
So Brad McLaughlin mingled reckless talk
Of heavenly stars with hugger-mugger farming,
Till having failed at hugger-mugger farming
He burned his house down for the fire insurance
And spent the proceeds on a telescope
To satisfy a lifelong curiosity
About our place among the infinities.
`What do you want with one of those blame things?'
I asked him well beforehand. `Don't you get one!'
`Don't call it blamed; there isn't anything
More blameless in the sense of being less
A weapon in our human fight,' he said.
`I'll have one if I sell my farm to buy it.'
There where he moved the rocks to plow the ground
And plowed between the rocks he couldn't move,
Few farms changed hands; so rather than spend years
Trying to sell his farm and then not selling,
He burned his house down for the fire insurance
And bought the telescope with what it came to.
He had been heard to say by several:
`The best thing that we're put here for's to see;
The strongest thing that's given us to see with's
A telescope. Someone in every town
Seems to me owes it to the town to keep one.
In Littleton it might as well be me.'
After such loose talk it was no surprise
When he did what he did and burned his house down.
Mean laughter went about the town that day
To let him know we weren't the least imposed on,
And he could wait---we'd see to him tomorrow.
But the first thing next morning we reflected
If one by one we counted people out
For the least sin, it wouldn't take us long
To get so we had no one left to live with.
For to be social is to be forgiving.
Our thief, the one who does our stealing from us,
We don't cut off from coming to church suppers,
But what we miss we go to him and ask for.
He promptly gives it back, that is if still
Uneaten, unworn out, or undisposed of.
It wouldn't do to be too hard on Brad
About his telescope. Beyond the age
Of being given one for Christmas gift,
He had to take the best way he knew how
To find himself in one. Well, all we said was
He took a strange thing to be roguish over.
Some sympathy was wasted on the house,
A good old-timer dating back along;
But a house isn't sentient; the house
Didn't feel anything. And if it did,
Why not regard it as a sacrifice,
And an old-fashioned sacrifice by fire,
Instead of a new-fashioned one at auction?
Out of a house and so out of a farm
At one stroke (of a match), Brad had to turn
To earn a living on the Concord railroad,
As under-ticket-agent at a station
Where his job, when he wasn't selling tickets,
Was setting out, up track and down, not plants
As on a farm, but planets, evening stars
That varied in their hue from red to green.
He got a good glass for six hundred dollars.
His new job gave him leisure for stargazing.
Often he bid me come and have a look
Up the brass barrel, velvet black inside,
At a star quaking in the other end.
I recollect a night of broken clouds
And underfoot snow melted down to ice,
And melting further in the wind to mud.
Bradford and I had out the telescope.
We spread our two legs as we spread its three,
Pointed our thoughts the way we pointed it,
And standing at our leisure till the day broke,
Said some of the best things we ever said.
That telescope was christened the Star-Splitter,
Because it didn't do a thing but split
A star in two or three, the way you split
A globule of quicksilver in your hand
With one stroke of your finger in the middle.
It's a star-splitter if there ever was one,
And ought to do some good if splitting stars
'Sa thing to be compared with splitting wood.
We've looked and looked, but after all where are we?
Do we know any better where we are,
And how it stands between the night tonight
And a man with a smoky lantern chimney?
How different from the way it ever stood?

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Karma ran over my Dogma

So I try to keep my blog pretty up beat and positive.  There are too many  other places to find negativity if you want to find it.
Not today.
For the last few weeks my up beat has been beat down.  My skin is raw from being dragged over the broken glass called LIFE.  No, nothing really major happened, except maybe me breaking my fall with my face~ yes it did hurt as much as it looked like it did~ but really it's the little things that are building up to look like mount Fuji:

1~ my great neighbors moved to Italy (yea for new adventures for them)
2~ the living room TV decided to die
3~ my computer has been rebelling
4~ got a call from the camp counselor because our son decided to throw a dodge ball at a kids face (on purpose)
5~ our middle monkey dropped ice cream all over the freshly mopped floor~ not just ice cream but the little bits of flash frozen dip-n-dots that melted all over the floor in about 1.2 seconds
6~ the soccer mom mobile has been acting up
7~ summer is only half over~ that's a double edged sword right there, and I have no more summer adventure ideas left for the monkeys!
8~ and about a hundred other little things flying around like little swarms of gnats irritating the crap out of me...

 I know that this is all just part of life's dips and turns, and tomorrow I'll try to find the silver lining, the rainbow after the storm and whatever other little trite saying there is, but for today all I really want to do is check into a hotel, order room service, watch tv and lay around in my pajamas and let someone else worry about all the little things that are driving my crazy lately.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Dear Photograph

I stumbled across this site DearPhotograph.com an I loved the idea and artistry of it.  Taking a photograph of a photograph; reliving the memories, feeling the change from then through now.  It also made me a bit sad.  I wish I had that one constant place in my life.  Part of my envies those who have.  My husbands family still live in the same house he grew up in.  His family has roots that go deep; my family, well not so much.  The pictures also made me long.  A longing for the innocence and joy the past always seems to hold.  



Check the site, it's beautiful.

under the same moon and stars,
ibs

p.s.  disclaimer: none of the photos are mine in anyway legaleeze legaleeze legaleeze....

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Do you believe in fate?


do you believe in fate? destiny?  are you pre-destined? or do you make your own destiny?  I like to believe that we have at least some say in how and where our lives end up.  No, you don't have to climb mount everest, or travel the world, unless that is where your heart is.  If living your day to day life~ laughing with your friends and family is enough, then it is enough.  Our lives change, and so do our aspirations for ourselves.  Live your life on your terms and let Fate fend for itself.  

Fate
That you are fair or wise is vain,
Or strong, or rich, or generous;
You must have also the untaught strain
That sheds beauty on the rose.
There is a melody born of melody,
Which melts the world into a sea.
Toil could never compass it,
Art its height could never hit,
It came never out of wit,
But a music music-born
Well may Jove and Juno scorn.
Thy beauty, if it lack the fire
Which drives me mad with sweet desire,
What boots it? what the soldier's mail,
Unless he conquer and prevail?
What all the goods thy pride which lift,
If thou pine for another's gift?
Alas! that one is born in blight,
Victim of perpetual slight;—
When thou lookest in his face,
Thy heart saith, Brother! go thy ways!
None shall ask thee what thou doest,
Or care a rush for what thou knowest,
Or listen when thou repliest,
Or remember where thou liest,
Or how thy supper is sodden,—
And another is born
To make the sun forgotten.
Surely he carries a talisman
Under his tongue;
Broad are his shoulders, and strong,
And his eye is scornful,
Threatening, and young.
I hold it of little matter,
Whether your jewel be of pure water,
A rose diamond or a white,—
But whether it dazzle me with light.
I care not how you are drest,
In the coarsest, or in the best,
Nor whether your name is base or brave,
Nor tor the fashion of your behavior,—
But whether you charm me,
Bid my bread feed, and my fire warm me,
And dress up nature in your favor.
One thing is forever good,
That one thing is success,—
Dear to the Eumenides,
And to all the heavenly brood.
Who bides at home, nor looks abroad,
Carries the eagles, and masters the sword.

Monday, May 16, 2011

The Magical Thinking Project #2

Magical thinkers were asked to write a manifesto; this is mine.




WHY

Because Life is SHORT and NOTHING is guaranteed.  
Because existing is NOT enough.  
Because it’s not a race to the finish.  
Because it IS about the EXPERIENCE.  
Because this will not last FOREVER.  
Because ONE life is the flap of the butterflies wings.  
Because you DON’T get another Chance. 
Because the BAD is as much a part of the story as the GOOD.  
Because living vicariously is NOT really living.  
Because we all need each other.  
Because LOVE.  
Because I AM ONE.  
Because one IS the beginning.  
Because I don’t have all the answers.  
Because of this wonderful thing called LIVING.  
Because of all of this and more I wilL BE and DO and WISH and DREAM and ACT and 
EMBRACE IT ALL.  

under the same moon and stars,
ibs

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

The Invitation

The Invitation 
by Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for,
And if you dare to dream of meeting
Your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
For love, for your dream,
For the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon. 
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow,
If you have been opened by life’s betrayals,
Or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain, 
Mine or your own,
Without moving 
To hide it or fade it or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy,
Mine or your own,
If you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
Without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic,
or to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself,
If you can bear the accusation on betrayal and not betray your own soul.
I want to know if you can be faithless and therefore be trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty
Even when it is not pretty every day,
And if you can source your life 
From its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, 
Yours and mine,
And still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes!”
It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair,
Weary and bruised to the bone,
And do what needs to be done for the children.
It doesn’t interest me who you are, how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand 
In the center of the fire with me
And not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
From the inside
When all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone
With yourself,
And if you truly like the company you keep
In the empty moments.